"Two sides to the coin, who you rollin wit? Soulja Boy or Ice T?" - Joe Budden

Oh no this nigga didn't. Basically what he is saying, is that because Nas came out with his hip hop is dead album, people started believing hip hop is dead. Umm, that is the problem with these zombified faggits we call "listeners and fans". People started doing some stupid dance and were quick to "superman that ho", it started growing. I dunno who the fuck this guy is, but this pretty much explains my response to that. You fucking faggit ass mainstream bitches are buying to this bullshit. The fucking DJ's on the radio stations are being programmed like fucking robots. Hip hop has become a fucking industry. I don't agree with some of the things that this guy says, for instance:

1. Don't encourage Soulja Boy.

2. Don't blame Run D.M.C. and LL Cool J. Well maybe "I Need Love" L but not "Mama Said Knock You Out" L and DEFINITELY not "Rock The Bells" L.

3. Don't down Ice-T so much. He was just tryna expose that fuckin poser.

Agh. In other news, LOOK WHAT IS FINALLY COMING OUT!!!!!!!

So many fucking Tupac movies, it is about fucking time. I am going to see it on opening day. They shoulda picked a different guy. Biggie was uglier and had a cock eye. Oh and fatter. And I hope that isn't the guy that plays Tupac, cuz he looks nothin like him. And I hope they don't make Pac look like a bad guy in this movie cuz the bad guy was Suge Knight. Pac was already dead so it couldn't have been Pac that shot him. Well we shall see on January 16th.

I almost forgot to say what's been goin in my life. I saw that Soulja boy shit and I had to post it right away. Well I got laid off by Westgate, I think I mentioned it. So I been struggling a lil. But I got an interview tommorrow for Burger King. Ugh another fast food. I can choose between that or a job delivering tiles. Imma go on the interview and see which pays more. Besides that, just livin life one day at a time. Trying to keep a smile on my face. Metallica's new cd is the shiznit. We all know how "St. Anger" was a big dissappointment. Well they got back together with Rick Rubin, and by lord if you don't know Rick Rubin, then erase any memory of Run D.M.C., LL Cool J, The Beastie Boys, and any other old school Def Jam artist you may know. Rubin is famous for bring artists back to their old sound. He did it here. Peep.

Btw. A certain someone left me hangin sooooo bad. She pretty much lynched me. Yeah a specific Q-Tip concert that I wanted to go to. I was waiting in Lakeside park for her. Yeah. Haven't heard an I'm sorry or nothin. But she can make it up to me. A little birdy told me John Legend is coming to town. If she'll let me take her, all will be forgiven. =]

peace, love, and nappiness.

A melancholy town where we never smile.

I have attempted to blog but I never got to finish them. Now that I look at the drafts, and thank [god] I didn't. They were all me moping about my tragic ass life. The last one was a cry for help. It didn't go through so I cried for help to the only person that seems to keep me sane. On Thanksgiving day, I was all by my lonesome. My ex who I moved in with, who I never really broke up with, left my ass on that very day. So I went on to a turkey-less Thanksgiving. Not even a family to share it with. (They were in Atlanta) I had some McDonalds and some 7-11 tacquitos. When she left, I did what I always did when I get angry. I threw shit and punched shit in my room. Then I realized that I would have to clean it up. So I walked and walked and walked and walked and walked till I ended up at my roomates job. He wasn't there so I attempted to contact Amy. I asked her for some mental support, hoping she'd respond cuz if not, I'd go crazy in solitude. She did. I told her thanks after we spoke and had my mind set on drinkin' and or smokin' my problems away. I stayed sober and called it a night. The next morning I woke up happy as can fuckin be for some odd reason. (Even though Maria left me hangin' that night for the Q- Tip concert) I began to think I was going crazy. But then I realized what had happened. I bottled up all the bullshit. I've been filling that bottle the last couple of years and pretty soon I won't be able to put the lid back on and the shit's gunna spill. It still feels like sanity has slipped from my grip and I haven't realized it yet. I digress. I've seen a light and I'm going towards it. No, not the kind like when you die. The kind that actually brightens days up. Well I can't make up exactly what it is, but I'm going towards it. I got my liscense reinstated and I've already started saving up money, so for now I'm gunna keep on keepin on. Payin off these court fees and saving up for a car. By the way, they terminated my juvenile probation. I've only got my adult probation to worry about and that's just a mail in thing. 50 bucks a month and a lil bit of community service. Life ain't lookin so bad. Alls' I wanna do is enjoys it.

Hip hop's funeral took place at the awards. Kanye sucks. So does Lil Wayne and any other fuckhead that is still out there trying to rap. I bet Nas wasn't even nominated. FTW!! I've started listening to rock. And not that Nickelback pussy shit. Rock. Where the guitarist's don't need a synthesizer to make their shit sound nice. Even rock is catching the "factory-made" virus that hip hop has caught. Anyway, metal, aggro, or just classic rock n' roll. I've grown fond of Metallica especially. Please, if you've never entered sandman, you got issues.

Interesting rock history. You know the South Park theme?

Well, the guy singing the song and playing the guitar is based off of an actual person. Les Claypool. At one point in time, Metallica's bass guitarist died and they were auditioning for a new one. Les auditioned and he didn't get the job but it wasn't because he wasn't good enough. Les has so much talent, it amazes me how not even some rockers don't know this guy. Dudes from Metallica told him that he was the best they had seen. Metallica pretty much told him that it would be a waste of his time if he was to join them. They told him that he needed to start his own band because they would just be holding him back. So he did. Hooked up with Larry LaLonde (guitar) and Tim Alexander (drums) and started Primus. Now Les wouldn't have fit with Metallica cuz they are, well, a metal band. That's aint really Les. He's like a funk metal. Man he is the shit. Peep this song. Please and I mean oh please, check out his bass guitar solo. Noone can do it like that. The vocals are pretty distinct and funky but I can dig it.

I would put the original video, but Universal Music group doesn't allow embedding on their vids. It's called "Tommy the Cat". Really good song. Very distinct sound and creative. This guy is a genius with a bass guitar.

So chea. Hip hop is dead and all we have now is the memories of when it was alive and well. Check my MySpace song. Joe Budden does a perfect job of listing all the reasons where it might of died. I'll post up the song and some nice quotables later.

Reasons why rock is easier to listen to:

1. You NEVER hear the same sound over again. Rockers play their instruments. They don't sample or steal lyrics. It's not done. Never has been. EVERY SONG IS ORIGINAL IDEAS.

2. It's ok to like any band. It's not like if you like Tupac then Biggie doesn't appeal to you. Or if you like Jay-Z then you can't listen to Nas.

3. Their isn't any negativity labeled on it. Rap has a "gangsta" label. It's sad but it does.

There's alot more, but need I list them? Naaaah. I will be blogging more often a-gain. And not about my misery.

Peace, love, and nappiness.

Although it seems heaven sent, we ain't ready to have a black president..

Well well well.. I've run into you again my listener with no ears. I have alot to say this time. Things have beeen runnin through my mind that have made me want to check myself in to a mental institute. Well first off, I am officially a registered voter. Now I'm still kind of borderline on who I am going to vote for even though it is one day away. I was thinkin Obama but now he is talking about taxing small businesses which will directly effect me because I work for a small business. I do like the fact that he is going to take people off welfare and bring them into jobs but if he is taxing small businesses, he will have less jobs to put them in. Oh and I dont know what Bush is trying to do before he goes, but he finnally is doing something. Gas went down at least two bucks in the past month. It's amazing. I'm still gonna personally help Bush pack his shit, but touche George. Thing is.. Mcain wants to keep Bush's shit going, and as far as oil it's an ok thing but economically we are waaaay too fucked for it. Which is why I am still leaning towards Obama. He also wants to tax those who make more than 250k a year 50%. Which is not messing me up but the upper class will be feeling it. Still though, If I was making half of that I would not give two fucks. Now I see why the rappers and celebrities support him so much. Share the wealth. In a wierd way, it kinda makes me feel like a communist for agreeing with that. W/e.




In other news, I moved out my mom's house. I moved in with roomates into a 5 bedroom house. My ex is living with me and I would have loved it to be on a relationship status but I can't. She's changed and I dont like what she's become. Reminds me of me when I was younger and that life got me nowhere but shot at, beat up, or in jail. She used to be the one that told me to stop smokin cigs and weed. Now she's always buggin me for one. That's the ugly side of change, I guess.




Now you might be thinkin, "This guy seems to be doing good. What in the blue hell is driving him so crazy in the head?" Well interestingly enough, I was reading Maria's bloggie (http://mariabonita09.blogspot.com) and she talked about how people always focus on money and that's what's important to them. I'mm sitting there like, "Girl if you only knew." This economy must be bending over for the white house cuz they've fucked it. I jave two jobs and I only get about 1400 a month. Ladies and gents, let's go to math class a gain. After taxes it's about 1200. 400 goes to rent. The first light bill hasn't come and I have to split that between five people. 50 to probation A. 30 to probation B. 25 to court costs. 60 to phone bill. which leaves me at like 500 something maybe 600 to play with for the month. Now, I don't have a car so I gotta take public transportation. 4 dollars a day. Times 30. And then I gotta eat. Lord knows how much I spend on that. And then I have unfortunately become a heavy smoker. I go through a pack a day. Well anyway, there's more expenses that I haven't even calculated, but you pretty much get the picture. What have I done to solve my problem? Started pushing reef. There is nooooooooo reef on the pavement. There's a bigger drought than Lil Wayne mixtapes. I get a zip and I double my profit in two fuckin nights. So I pretty much maintain two jobs to be flat broke. My ex is supposed to start her job tommorrow so maybe that will make things better cuz then rent is only 200 a month. The money I make from green, I save up in a savings account. Now this isn't what scares me. I was warned that this is life after high school and especially without a high school diploma. What scares me is this. Every day I got to work in the morning, Get out at 3 and go to work again at 5 to come out at 10, 11, even 12. for 12 to 14 hours a day, I am workin. And then i come home and sleep. I'm trapped in the system already and I am only 18. I cant ask my mom for help cuz she is broke her damn self. She just moved into a new house so that can really fuck with someone's money. Still, I can't believe I have turn into a "zombie". I say zombie cuz of Nas's song "Black Zombies". I used to listen to it and think to myself, :I don't wanna be a zombie. Now I listen to it and I feel like he's talkin bout me. Listen to it. You'll see what I mean. I then realized that I am a young mahfucka. I have seen what I have become early in my life and still have time to change this. First step is highschool diploma. NOT ged. HSD mofos.




Oh and I know it's mad late but the concert was pretty bangin. The first band was lame. N.E.R.D. pissed me off. Common was the shit of course. Two moments that stood out for me. First was when he performed "The People". The beat dropped at "Can't leave rap alone, the game needs me!" He performed that shit pretty nice. He is actually pretty awesome on stage. Then he started performing a song which the beat sounded awfully familiar to Nas' "New York State of Mind". And I'm like hmm. Then I heard,

Rappers I monkey flip em

With the funky rythm

I be kickin, musician inflict the composition of pain

I'm like scarface sniffin cocaine

Holdin an M-16

See with the pen I'm extreme

Bullet holes left in my peep holes

I'm suited up with street clothes

Hand me a 9 and I'll defeat foes

Ya'll know my steelo, with or without the air play

I keep some E & J sittin bent up in the stairway

Or either on the corner bettin Grants with the cee lo champs

Laughin at baseheads tryin to sell some broken amps

G packs get off quick, forever niggas talk shit

Reminiscing about the last time the task force flipped

Niggas be runnin through the block shootin

Time to start the revolution, catch a body, head for Houston

Once they caught us off guard, the mac 10 was in the grass and

I ran like a cheetah with thoughts of an assassin

Pick the mac up, told brothers, "back up," the mac spit

Lead was hittin niggaz one ran, I made him backflip

Heard a few chicks scream, my arm shook, couldn't look

Gave another squeeze, heard it click yo, my shit is stuck

Try to cock it, it wouldn't shoot now I'm in danger

Finally pulled it back and saw three bullets caught up in the chamber

So now I'm jetting to the building lobby

and it was filled with children probably couldn't see as high as I be

(So whatchu sayin?) It's like the game ain't the same

Got younger niggaz pullin the triggers bringing fame to they name

and claim some corners, crews without guns are goners

In broad daylight, stickup kids, they run up on us

Fo'-fives and gauges, macs in fact

Same niggaz'll catch a back to back, snatchin yo' cracks in black

There was a snitch on the block gettin niggaz knocked

So hold your stash until the coke price drop

I know this crackhead, who said she gotta smoke nice rock

And if it's good she'll bring ya customers in measuring pots, but yo

You gotta slide on a vacation

Inside information keeps large niggaz erasin and they wives basin

It drops deep as it does in my breath

I never sleep, cause sleep is the cousin of death

Beyond the walls of intelligence, life is defined

I think of crime when I'm in a New York state of mind

I also met a really good customer there. Everyone was pullin out L's. So I pulled out mines. Advertisement baby. Some girl saw what I had and said that she absolutely had to get my number. I saw a big dollar sign over her forehead.

Money doesn't buy happiness, but neither does being broke.

Well, let's see what happens tommorrow.

Got to be somethin' for me to write this..

Shiiiiit. Been a while since I touched this but a nigga been busy as a mahfucka on mother's day. Alot of shit been happening, but barely any of it bad. Tomorrow is my court date and I'm sure if they piss test me I'm gunna come up dirty. It takes 30 days for weed to get out your system. Bleh. Whatever, I've officially decided to stop talkin bout my weed habits on my blog. Reason being is because, well.. remember when I blogged and was talkin about emotions and controllin em? Well apparently there's a kind of book on that. It's called "The Secret" by "Some Bitch". It's supposed to be the secret to life and everything. Well apparently that secret is the law of attraction. As you know, the law of attraction states that like will only attract like. So what they are trying to get at is your thoughts will attract exactly what your thinkin about. It's like your mind is a T.V. station tower. Whatever you tune into is what your gunna get. Follow? So if all you think is positive thoughts, your only gonna get positive things. That's why when you think about certain shit, like bad feelings, they only get worse. Like that rage I was telling you about. I saw one of the guys that jumped me at my court date. He wouldn't even look me in the eye. I wanted to jump past the bailiff and fuck his ass up, but thats a whole other charge that I can't afford to catch right now. Point is, I keep thinkin about it and it only gets worse. Your mind doesn't understand negatives. For example, if you keep thinkin "I don't want these shoes to hurt" or somethin like that, the only thing that's makin it to the mind is hurting shoes. So for shit like that, it's best to just NOT think about. Think about what you WANT, not what you DON'T WANT, cuz the message won't go through. I'm sure my readers know what (who) I want. I must not be doing it right, cuz I think about her all the time. Then again, that's the only thing I been doing about it.

Well in other news, I registered to vote. I have NO FUCKING CLUE as to who Imma vote for yet so don't ask me. I'm not gonna vote for Obama just because it's what everyone else feels is right and I'm not gunna be an asshole and vote for McBitch over there. I'm gunna watch the debate when I get the chance and do my research and decide based on who I think has the best chance of steering the country back in the right direction. Cuz man this economy is fucked. I'm sittin right now at home and if my manager calls me right now I'm gunna shit my pants. My mom called and said they were firing people in my department today. Today is my day off so he has no reason to call me unless he is gunna fire me. They fired 200 people from Westgate yesterday. In ONE day. And all the big heads and well payed people got paycuts. Ain't that some shit. I don't care about Pollo Tropical but I need that Westgate job. I get benefits, perks, and it's an easy ass job.

Gettin my own place soon. VERY soon. Like 2 weeks soon. Then once I fix my shit with my liscence, Imma get me a car. In the mean time, Imma save up my money and enjoy some of it while I can. Fuck it. Just enjpy life to the fullest cuz no one knows when your lifetime is full.

At times when I'm lost I try to find you

You know to give me space when it's time to

My heart's dictionary defines you

Whatever inspires him to write stuff like this, I want it. Hopefully I don't get locked up before the concert. =[

..But seriously thought, follow the blog.

Please excuse for the shit I'm bout to post..

Oh an I almost for got...

This is Lali's bloggie. She advertised me, so I gotta return it.

I gots mad love gor that girl. ^_^

go kill everyone at work and take the day off..

That was a line from a Beatnuts song. Shit had me rolling cuz I was at work and looking around like fuck this place. My job is beginning to piss me off. See, I work hourly vs. commission, meaning that whichever one pays me more, is what I get paid. For instance, I put in 32 hours in a week, that's about 200 somethin' a week, give or take with taxes and all. But I don't always get those hours, my schedule varies. Which means that I am almost FORCED to make my money off commission. Which means I have to talk to people and sell these fucking tours and shit. Man it's pretty stressful and I'm probably not making any sense, but a nigga gotta vent too. Maybe my paychecks would seem bigger if I didn't have to pay 100 dollars a week. 50 to my mom for rent and 50 to her boyfriend for bailing me out. 

Speaking of.. I got court on Friday for that shit. Wish me luck. They told Stylistics that he had one of two options. Option 1 was too spend a year in county, suspend his driver's license for 6 months, and pay like a bajillion dollars in fines. Option 2 was a probation like program for a year. She said option 2 was him getting off easy. I figure if they do that to me, option 2 won't hurt me at all. I still have another year of juvenile probation left anyway. Then again, if this never happened, I probably would have been off of that already. Oh yeah, it can also hurt me financially. And I just realized that now EVERY job can see that I have a record. Wow, I always knew becoming an adult would suck, but not this hard.

Me and my epiphany having ass. WTF? Anyway, here's something I realized about myself. And possibly other people. Well in all honesty, each and every one of us can control our emotions. Well most of em', but I'll get to that in a second. See, whenever we think something, our mind sends out messages to our body and conscience. So if you have that feeling of "I'm a bad person" or "I'm ugly" or somethin' like that, it's because you thought about it and kept thinkin it to the point where you started to believe it. That's where depression and self consciousness comes in. You start criticizing yourself and the mind tells you it's true. However, if you tell yourself "I'm a good person" and "I am beautiful", then those are the mind waves you can control. But if you do that with alot of things, you can control most emotion. It ain't lyin' to yourself because you know whats true and what isn't, but instead you think it in your head so the emotion of that bad event doesn't affect you. Cuz sometimes, you can't let your emotions affect your decisions, depending on what type of emotion it is. Now the ones that you CAN'T control are the ones that usually have some deep significance. Like for instance, I can't control this feeling I have for this one girl. So I know it's a strong feeling I got for her. But the thing I've realized I can't get over is the fuckin' concussion to the head that these bastuhdz left me with. Niggas is STILL goin' around talkin' shit. But wow, how the rage has been eating me up inside. In order to get what I am bout to say, you have to understand my past. Ever since I was a lil dude at 13, I was out and about doin' this and that. The reason I got the name Skit was because at times, I would do shit without thinkin' of it. I would react pretty wild sometimes. One time I was smoking on the block and someone let off a firecracker and without thinkin of it, I ran cuz I thought it was the cops. Everyone looked at me like I was crazy. Then my boy Will started crackin' on me. He called me Skitso, cuz I was acting real paranoid, then the name stuck. Skit. SkitSoFrenic. Well, back to my undying rage. It's a rage that has been buildin up over time. I don't wanna let that rage control me cuz I'd just be goin' back to my old ways. And look where my old ways got me, right? So how do I suppress this anger? I smoke. When I smoke, I'm the type that just mellows out. I'm on point, but my body is relaxed, my mind is relaxed, my entire state of being is relaxed. I don't take my rage out on others. It's not an excuse to smoke, cuz if it was, it would be a really poor excuse. It's just my only escape. Ahh. I need help. Where's Amy when you need her?

I will be going to Common and N.E.R.D.'s concerto with bloggie fan numero uno. I will be gettin them tickets by the middle of next month. Ya'll should peep it too. Well those of my readers that are in Florida. lol

Peep it. Made me laugh.

Peace, Love, and Nappiness. AHAAA...

"..Niggaz frontin' like they real.. But busting caps ain't got a mothafuckin' thing to do wit showin' skill.."

(Only people that's in it like that know where I'm comin from with that.)

OOOLLLLLDDDD SCHOOOLLLLL KIIIIIDDD

Davy D, you are the best, rock this beat cuz it is so fresh!!

Now that the love isss gooonee!!!

Uhh been a lil unoccupied. How my week has been going so far?

Got my first paycheck. They told me they were gunna mail it but didn't tell me I had it the whole time. O.o Spent some cash. Gave half of it to my moms for rent. ^_^ (lame) lol But now she can't say I don't give when I got. Cuz soon I ain't gunna have shit. Nah my next paycheck is coming this Friday and after that they come in big. Cuz that was just training pay. Pfft Imma eat me a nice meal at mickey D's. Maybe probably smoke a fat one. Hey I've earned it now. I'm advertising Disney tickets on them forums I'm on!! LOL But yeah comin home after work and chillin'. Stopped the forums a lil. I only go on there cuz I'm a moderator for an audio battle league. It's pretty nice. One dude said some sick shit. His name was Faceman.. That wasn't his name but his user name is -_-, so we call him Faceman. lol

"Your just a waste of space like an asteroid belt."

Get it? Waste of space=waist of space=asteroid belt. Nice. Lol

 

Well yeah. Alot of people wanna do things with me this weekend but I think I wanna go see my baby sis Amy and my number one bloggie fan. =]

An by the way. Since I'm in a techno kind of mood lately. lol Here's this..

days go by and still i think of you.

Once again, you gotta watch the whole video. There's a story to it. Daft Punk sampled off of this and made an animated video using clips from the animated movie "Interstella 5555". It has the same concept except it was a girl in the guys place. Daft Punk made other videos with clips from the same movie, linking them all together somehow. But I really love this song. It's Dirty Vegas if you don't know the artist. I really hope I don't lose the one I love. I can't say I love someone. Certain women make it hard for me to do that. The rest are 'emotionally unavailable', while my heart lies at vacant. 

Message to my number one bloggie fan. Don't worry about how things are going. Your young, you have your whole life ahead of you with a lot more hardships to encounter. Don't mean to sound cynical, just ain't gunna lie to ya. Remember, it's like I said, if he really loves you, he will show it, if not, it could be a good thing. At this age, it is probably more healthy not to focus on love. Your a beautiful, smart, and charming person. I'm sure things will work out for the best. I hope the dryest of eyes for you. Skit cares.

Speakin' of. I hope to show girls that I want a serious relationships and that I am serious and blablabla. I know I am not the first guy to tell you this and that, I am the first guy to mean it though. Bleh. Lali's blog gives me alot of insight on stuff. I mean, I ended up askin myself the same question though. How do I prove it??? How do I show a girl how I feel and that those feelings are real? That I want to treat her the best I possibly can. How do I get just a simple phone call? Or a chance to break the ice? When is it that I can make a move? I've told you what's on my mind. Mostly you. I may not say things directly, but I deliver the message. I'm scared to approach because wounded hearts tend to feel cornered and bite back. I've tried to heal a broken heart before but it ended up bleeding worse and the only fault I had in it was failing to save her from her past haunting her. So instead, I drop hints. I know you've received the message, you just haven't replied. I know it isn't the best time for you so I will just keep lingerin' around and hope for you to respond.

if you could see it then you'd understand..

Topic: Bodyless souls

(Listenin' to Daft Punk - Around The World)

Dragging empty sacks of spirits in satan's graveyard

Slappin tempting packs of cigarettes, traits behave charred

Saint's belay war's, reaper can take only so many souls

Awake lonely proes, freindly foes, N Make phony woe, sense these tolls

Hence these holes in my heart signify despair, Since thy part dignified repairs

Rinse my art, is it my affairs? Hints I'm smart, isn't thy prepared?

It isn't why they care, rather the sake of having faith

Fathom the stakes of spazzing fates, Hasn't the hate been grabbing pates?

Askin.. the way sins happen straight, tells me the questions are irrelevant 

Yellin the lessons are intelligent, yet oppressions scars the residence

So when obsessions are ignored, aggressions are implored

Now depressions are aboard, so expressions jar in hordes

and possessions aren't gored.. We leak the tears of sorrow

to see the cheers we borrow to defeat the fears of morrow

These ruined corpse need souls, seeing we would be otiose beings

the music sounds better with you.

Wow. Yesterday was finally a good day for me. One of the best I ever had. I will start off by saying this. The first thing I did was prayed. Haven't done it in a while, but I woke up, got in the shower, put my hands together, didn't kneel, and started praying. I don't know exactly who I was praying to, but I know I asked them for an opportunity to change. I asked him/her/it to help me get through this day for I have now realized my wrongs. My wrongs being my actions that only mess up my own life. See, the main reason I prayed was because I was scared I was going to get drug tested by my job. They don't require us to take a drug test!! So someone was with me yesterday. Question is, 'Who?'.

I took a break in the middle of this to spark an L. I even backspaced this so I can capitalize L. And I also came to the conclusion of Fuck a psychiatrist! but I don't remember why. I constructed a punch from it. 

"Your chances are fucking crazy like lady luck boned a psychiatrist."

So yeah my day continued. I finished orientation and now I start training tomorrow. But when I get out, I go find another job. So I said yeah I gotta celebrate. Friggin great. I felt so good. Today was ok. My first day off. My job site was moving so they told me I didn't have to go today. 

Shit. Been doing alot of thinking. I'm starting to get on my shit. Been a lil too busy for a blog.

Here's some of the shit that has caught my interest recently. 

This video is something you really have to observe. It's beautiful. Every single person moves along to a different part of the beat. I look at this song as an image of the world and people. Everyone contributes their own distinct sound to the beat of life. I know that sounds corny, but that's what I have gathered from this video. This has to be something you watch, not something you just look at for 2 seconds and say,"Oh that's nice." I mean the video is pretty old but I want people to see it the way I see it. This was pure genius.

Simplicity

By Snale
The most complex emotion with in me.
Some people see it as weakness,
I see it as a way of life.

Tell me what you see'
I'm sure you've looked around at the world
But have you ever really opened your eyes?
Tell me what you see'

When a man is in the park
Throwing breadcrumbs to a flock of pigeons
Do you see happiness? Joy? Fufillment?
Or just a flock of pigeon'

When a tree sits through the winter
With one leaf holding strong
Do you see solitude? Strength? Independence
or do see it for what it is.

To you anyway.

My lifes made up of the most complex simplicity
I see with my heart, not with my eyes
I draw pictures of life in my head
and it all starts with something so simple....

Do you see the hurt in the man's eyes
Or will today just be another walk in the park
ask yourself
To just see life for what it is
just for a second
Simplicity

I can't take credit for this one, but I must admit I loved it. It was by a dude on them forums. It was intended to be a poem, not a verse. But it is something that makes you think. We tend to complicate things, when everything is much more simpler than it seems. Live life and enjoy it. It's the latter of the two that people have problems with. The amount of time we spend on this earth is so insignificant and small that we need to cherish it. Because in the blink of an eye it will be gone. The simplicity of life: you live, then you die. The End.

I gotta get mine, You gotta get yours..

Sorry I haven't blogged in years. I'll be back soon. Been hella busy. I start working my FIRST job on Monday and I'm still seeing about my second job. Most probably will be Pollo Tropical.

Here's something for your enjoyment.

Skit out.

and another one...

I caught a big-boy charge. =[ It was the day after my birthday. I got happy and went and smoked a half ounce in less than 24 hours. We got caught with a little bit left.




My consience is KILLING ME. I was doing so good. My mom cried her heart out. The people that were supporting me and keeping me in a positive direction felt that I let them down and some are even cutting themselves off from me. And I think to myself, "That is so cold. Don't they know how much I am suffering right now?" But I suppose I deserve it. That's how depressed I've been. I've stayed in the house all day since then. Started smoking cigarettes, again. Yuck!!! But I've been driven to it. And I'm scared to go outside again. Scared of temptation. Man, she's a bitch. Been inside all day doing online school, battling, and watching daytime television. Sine my hire date has been pushed up to August 4th due to incarceration, Law & Order, Scrubs, and The Office are great shows that have entertained me. But yeah. I'm trying to move on from this. Thinking positive thoughts helps, so I've been told. It's crazy how she's the only one that notices me suffering from this. Everyone else looks at me with dissapointment but act as if I wanted to dissappoint them. She is the ONLY one that has tried to comfort me. I'm sure Amy would too but we haven't really talked about it. She wants me to call and I think it will help. No matter what goes on in this world, her words always make me feel better about stuff. I have no idea why. Maybe its her tone or what she says, but she makes things not seem so bad.


I called her, you know Ms. uhmm yeah, while I was locked up. I could only remember a limited amount of numbers and hers was the only one that picked up. It was good to hear her voice while in there. She's probably reading this and knows who she is, but fuck it, how I feel is how I feel. She helped me out when I needed it. Even though my mom had already found out somehow, she delivered the message. Thanks.


I recently found out that I have multiple fans. They like reading my stuff, mostly when I'm talking about things that don't really involve myself. Like when I speak on things in general. And they like my lyrics/poetry. So Imma give em what they want. This was a poem I had to do for online class. I had to write it as if I was part of Anne Bradstreets book "The Scarlet Letter". It's about adultery and lust and all that jazz. Not really my best content but I tried to emphasize the rhyme scheme. Enjoy.

When I respond, my word is bond

sins can be heard along the verbs of songs

Because adultery

are the results of weak,

doesn’t take much to see that love is free

But those oppose,

up shows to pose

and want to bruise minds like blows to nose

But to ere is human, yet despair is ruthless

and lying mouths are impaired till toothless

To hear the truth is

weird, but truth is

Hester Prynne, confessed to sin and she rued it

But one can’t see

that some can’t be

with just one man, see

But is this one man seen?

No, none can seem too blunt and bleek

It seems her heart indefinitely hunts and seeks

I agree. WTF happened to jams that made you feel good?

But I'm cool like that, I'm cool like that, I'm cool like that, I'm cool like that, I'm cool like that, I'm cool like that, I'm cool like that, I'm cool, cool

And I'm chill like that, I'm chill like that, I'm chill like that, I'm chill like that, I'm chill like that, I'm chill like that, I'm chill like that, I'm chill, chill

Blink..blink..blink..blink..blink..blink..blink....

Think..think..think..think..think..think..think...

I'm peace like that, I'm peace like that, I'm peace like that, I'm peace like that, I'm peace like that, I'm peace like that, I'm peace like that, I'm peace, peace

Check it out man

I groove like that

I'm smooth like that

I jive like that

I roll like that

Yeah I'm thick like that

I stack like that

I'm down like that

I'm black like that

Well yo I funk like that

I'm fat like that

I'm in like that

Cause I swing like that

We jazz like that

We freak like that

We zoom like that

We out...we out...

Sorry. I get into that song.

I've lived to see 18...thank god/allah/buddha/whoever you are..

I'm 18 and I'm at home putting my masterplan together. lol

when these seasons pass, we can breathe at last

with each of our feet swinging over seas of ash

the seed sees it's trees seize a breeze

we've received after it leaves the leaves

who needs to be mad tense; perceived as advent

since the future's bleak and past tense is absent..

your beauty must truely be an anomaly

pure philosophy, possible anemology..

illogicaly violatile thoughts swallow me-

this colossal grief causes an awful nostril bleed

fate fades; then less rays are raised

in a haze of grey shade; decades decay..

wish she would kiss me with disregard

but it's the dark which gets hearts ripped apart

even so, this demon's soul was renewed

everything erodes over time except my love for you

This piece is untitled. It was a topical match on those forums I be on. The topic was the picture. Alot of thought was actually put into this one. Made alot of 'internet thugs' give some emotional feed. So I can say that I am truely proud of this one...

fuck livin' [negative] 'cause [positivity] spreads faster.

I FINNALLY GOT A JOB INTERVIEW!

Yeah man. This changes alot. They drug test so I've stopped smokin' weed. Haven't smoked in almost a week. There's a downside to that though. I've been stayin' inside, 'cause I know if I go outside then Imma smoke. Everyone I know out here smokes and if I'm around them...temptation is a bitch. Well the interview is for Westgate resorts, booking tours or some shit like that. Fuck you, pay me...like nasty hookers!! lol Scratch that. I aint quoting Weezy ever again. Quoting him is like sex and drug, eveybody's doing it. smh


Yo yo yo. I'm turnin' 18 on the 18th. Growin' up sux. But my aunty getting me a bottle of Patron and I'm debating on wether going to the club or renting a hotel room and throwing a party there. Problem with that is I dont wanna bring random ass people. I just want my peoples there. The problem problem is..everyone I know is different in character so it's gonna be pretty lame, I think. I'm thinkin' if I do that then I'm gonn have to invite everyone. BUT B.Y.O.B.!!!! LMAOOO

Download Mixtape Provided by DatPiff.com

Yes. Hip-Hop is still breathing. Nas returned to the style and level of rap he was on when he made "Illmatic". This is definitely his comeback album. He hinted a little comeback when he made "Hip Hop Is Dead", but this is a breakthrough. Nas Escobar has turned back into Nasty Nas. The timeline track is one of my favorites. It goes through all of his classics and EVERY "Illmatic" song. Hero is the first single off of it. And Black President is a song inspired by Barack Obama speaking about the current election.


I haven't looked into it, but I am going to vote for Obama for Ms. Unr...err my number one bloggie fan. =]

let's get stoned like medusa baby...

My weekly agenda:


Smoke.
Smoke.
Smoke.
Smoke.
Slow down my smoking.
Get lost in Kissimmee.
Start smoking again.
Smoke some more.
Getting a job.



Hancock blowed but Hulk was the shit. Love Guru made me laugh so hard...then again, I was high. =[


I've been spending my time battling online. After winning those 5 straight battles, I lost 5 straight. Maybe its the reef? Got a championship battle to redeem myself though.


I've realized that I'm not the best known person because I choose to be that way. I wont talk to people I've just met unless something tells me I should. If they start a conversation, I'll talk back. But besides that, I'm the quiet guy in a room full of people. I like to observe others first. You never know when your going to need that information. Some shit goes down and they try to accuse me, I know who was around me to clear my name, wether they know me or not. But I observe everything and everyone. Sometimes it could be wordless moments that say the most. Two days ago, I was hangin out in my hood with some old smokin buddies, (Some dreadhead that knows how to navigate.) and we went to a gazeebo that most people smoke at. I saw three hispanic dudes who look closely affiliated to the crown...er crowd I used to be around. They were smoking so it wouldn't have been appropriate to bring it up. Same went for me cuz I was already high, but on point. Now it may sound like me being paranoid, but I have several reasons for thinking so. First, there has been a pattern of them going after some of the cats that have been in since back when. Second, we can identify eachother wether the other has colors or not, not to mention they are the only group of people I'm extremely popular with. Third, I had the only staredown with one of 'em. I think he knew who I was and vice versa. They smoked and I was just sitting there observing. They kept their right over left and everything was on the left side. (folds, jewelry, hats, headband) And the one that stared me down...lol...had black and yellow on!!


Oh and the "rey" that hates me the most lives in Orlando. He knows where I live but I dont know where he is located at.


So now I'm being watched in my own hood? lmao


Dont stop there though. I got contacted unexpectedly by the moon. He was acting like everythin was all good. But instead of saying "bruddah" like he usually did, he called me his "nigga". Something aint right. Well he made it clear that they dont want him talkin to me, but why does he get in touch with me now of all times? Oh and the bitch I said can "act" is acting like she wanna fuck with me. She doesn't, I can tell. She always hits me up like "Hey, boo." and she even told me she loves me but I doubt that. She is trying to set me up or send me to do something. A vibe tells me this, oh and she keeps askin me mad information. Like where my mom works at??? Get the fuck out of here. Try harder. There's more detail to it, but I dont think anyone will get it.


Seems like my past is haunting me. Or my split personality is having an identity crisis. Skitsofrenic Vs. Hector. Skit ain't going down without a fight. Here was his last attempt to turn the tables.


Last weekend was Stylistic's 21st birthday. So I'm like,"Fuck that, Imma go smoke with him." My plan was to spend the night over there. Mind you, he lives a county over in Kissimmee. Well I stayed the first night. The second night was different. I was supposed to go home that night but I was left hangin. Just wanderin the streets like I used to. Hangin and smokin with this one and that one. Like my old days. I used to just drift aimlessly into the streets. Like a leaf in the wind, I had no control of where I was goin, I just went. I relived it for one night. And I felt like Skit again.

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P.S. Hip-hop is still alive. Due to Nas's "Nigger Tape" and Royce Da 5'9's "Bar Exam 3".

if only you could see through your elaborate eyes

Today I listened to this song and thought about her all day...

...she's a beautiful person...

^_^

This made me think of her before I seen anyone else do it...

To: Ms. Unrequited

"...take two and pass..."

Yeah, so summer school makes life hectic as hell. And night school till 8 right after doesnt help. I smoked some more before I went to night school and I got some more left in my drawer. =/

I been smoking everyday since...

I NEED SOMETHING TO NUMB MY MIND!!

Summer school is like bending your knees backwards and educational t.v.......FOR 7 HOURS STRAIGHT!!

I'm taking English IV in there and we did Beowulf. Now I had already read it, but the cool thing about our teacher is that she puts on alot of movies. She put on the 13th Warrior with Antonio Banderas. I remember watching that movie when I was younger, just didn't remember what it was about. And then I'm watching it and here are the comparisons. In 13th Warrior, the plot is the same as Beowulf. A kingdom is under attack and Beowulf goes to help. Except in 13th Warrior, his name was Bulyif, or some shit like that. Well, in the story, 'Herot' is constantly attacked by a monster named "Grendel". In the movie, Herot is under constant attack by a tribe of men who dress as monsters by putting bearskin over them called Grendols. In the story, Grendel's mother is a monster as well, and fights with Beowulf. In the movie, there is a mother figure that they worship. You get the point. What I'm getting at is that the whole story was made out to be farfetched. In fact they say Beowulf was the legend of many great warriors all in one. Thing is that some of the stories got mixed up together. Back then, they didnt have books. They told stories orally. So who knows what could have been mixed up. There was so much shit said that by the time people wrote it down, it was probably nowhere near what really happened. So what if that was the case with the bible? I mean, what if Jesus did live back then, but he wasn't who he was made out to be? Remember, Jesus didn't write the bible, so who's to say those people didn't stretch the truth? Who's to say Jesus was just a persuasive person? After all, he only had 12 disciples. Not to mention a nation of Jews and Hebrews after his ass like he was a cellmate. (Man that was so wrong of me.) Just something that crossed my mind and has exponentially multiplied in thinking quantity.

my warm up suit is still on

Whoa. Sorry, I know I said I would be back but the same day I posted that blog, I became a moderator for the league. So it means I'm runnin' shit now. Haha, nah just the punchline forum on the site. Well it needs my constant attention, so most of my time on the computer is spent on that site. Don't even look at myspace no more. I'll add a different song every now and then, but my songs always get deleted and it goes back to my most recent song which is always "Go" by Common. Laaame. I'm still 5-0 in the league though, and I'm in a text tourney, so that means WHOLE VERSES!!! Goddamn.

I starts summerschool tommorrow and I been slacking on online school. I might be too busy for anything. Plus Imma start working soon at the resort my momma works at.

I ain't ready to die till ya'll let me live.

Please welcome back your favorite blogger in this bloggie of blogs. I dunno.

Well it's been a fuckin long ass time but I can't escape this blog. The shit that's happened actually is pretty important and various so I will make a list.

1. I finished High School......sorta. I gotta wrap up my night school, online school, and get these 4 weeks of summerschool out the way and I am officially a High School graduate.

2. I fuckin smoked 2 weeks ago. It was wrong and I shouldn't have done it and I am sorrwompwomp..wompwomp..wompwomp..wompwomp. Motherfuck that, I only got one life to live so who the fuck is anybody to tell me any different. And it wasn't one little blunt, I ain't going to come out of retirement for no baby shit. I stayed the weekend in Kissimmee. Day one was about 7 blunts of straight HAZE. Day two was not so much cuz we played ball. And day three was the part where it all went wrong. I got high as fuck but I needed to go home already. So, my mom came to get me with my two aunts in the car. BAAD!! My whole family from New York was at my house and i was spifflicated!! And it was their last day being there, so it made me seem like I didn't give a fuck that they was there and I just aint want them to see me high. bleehhhh. I really feel bad about Amy though. She seemed more dissappointed than anyone else. Everyone was like,"Oh that's bad, and I'm dissappointed...yadayada." She got mad and started yelling at me. At least someone cares.

3. July 18th I hit the big one eight. So that means my mom can legitamately ask me for rent, and she can kick me out if I dont pay. Not to mention I have my own room now. Im counting on it, though. I dont wanna pay rent here. I'd rather pay rent in my OWN apartment. Stylistics says he gon' get an apartment. Maybe I chip in with him. Then there's like 3 different females that wanna move in with me and I reely don't wanna do that. I wanna enjoy my life by myself, even though Imma be livin with my niggas. You know what I mean.

4. Remember that website for online rappers I talked about? Well it moved to a new one and the league I was in had a final tournament before it started a new one. I won the tournament. I went against, get this, a 15 year old kid!! He young but this nigga can spit some shit. He kinda went weak against me in the championship though. His name is Punslinger. Well his online name. So the finals, Punslinger Vs. SkitSoFrenic:

Punslinger:

Bar vs Bar?...Shit, your lines are 'bout to have issues like bar-quotes to a mag.

So battling me? I’m labeled a ‘Chain-smoking British,’ So I wont have trouble when I smoke up this Fag..

SkitSoFrenic:
i aint holdin back but i'm grippin his spinal cord, for the record, i'll wax this bitch like vinyl floors

since theres no intertwined awards, i'll find a sword, and excaliburs/x calibers, the way i undermine his score!!!

I won 5 votes to 2. In the new league I am currently 4-0 and got a free pass to a championship belt so I am chilling. I've gotten addicted to these sites. I am on about 5 other ones. I am in punchline tourneys in two of 'em. I'm 0-1 in those. I will pick up.

Here is my new list of best rappers out right now.

5. Ransom Dollars

4. J.R. Writer

3. Joe Budden

2. Royce Da 5'9

1. SkitSoFrenic baby!!!!! I am so full of myself.

5. Love life. Where do I begin? I think I will do a mini list inside of this list:

A. There's one girl who wanna talk about moving in with her and yada yada. And she got a kid. I aint down with that but then again I find myself possibly going along with it. I dunno, maybe she just another mess around.

B. I reeeaallyy know this one is a mess around. She one of those who can act her way through Hollywood. But she acts to fuck with dudes. That's why I gotta hit and run like Carmelo before I end up in 'La-La' land. I know the history behind this one, so trust me I know what I be talkin bout.

C. Now we really talkin bout 'love' life. The previous two was more of my sex life. This girl started talkin to my brother Bam, but he can't see a good girl when she's right in his face. He is a player and a half. Well she seent past his shit and now we kinda interested in eachother. But it aint nuthin more than a mutual interest.

D. Ms. Unrequited. I seen a pic of her with her new man. Bummer.

This is some of the major things that's been going on in my life. I will get more active on the bloggie again.

ditto.

Refers to Maria's blog.

fuck barbie and ken.

here's my life Rhymalinda for better or for worse.

defined

ragnarok - n. the destruction of the gods and of all things in a final battle with the evil powers

I'm thinkin of this for my MC name. I need a second opinion.

Week 9 of the punchline league and I'm against a scrub. My punch was constructed in less than a couple of hours and I doubt theres some rappers nowadays who could come up with this shit in a lifetime. The dudes name is "Dubb Cee".

i'll shake this brothers raps and break his mothers back, you shouldnt 'cee' walk on the cement

i'll dust dub: his lifes a wrap, the only way his lines are crack is the powder implement

Lines of coke. Get it? I didnt put much effort seeing that the guy I'm against is not so good. Knowing my luck he'll probably pull out some other world shit. lmao naaahh.

School is almost out. And YESSSSS. I gotta take competency exams because I missed so many days last semester, you know being locked up and on the run and all, but it aint shit. Im gettin my diploma and moving on.

Life's a bitch and she hasnt even had her first period yet. Yikes!!

Every MC has their "married to the game" anthem. This is mine.

just give me the mic and i rock like a fuckin fossil!

defined

hardcore - unswervingly committed; uncompromising; dedicated

My mom pointed out that I bring around alot of Colombian girls. So I guess I have a thing for Colombian girls. Some of the few meaningful relationships I had were with Colombian girls. Brigette sortah, and of course Naah. Naah was an example of how I had something good and didnt appreciate it and let it go. We still friends and we still cool but I kinda regret letting her go sometimes. But I dont like regretting. Anywayz. Of course theres Ms. Unrequited. Oh well.

Im feeling super lyrical like Big Pun.

I'm grippin an ax, mc's get split in half

I dont listen to that, why put that shit in tracks?

Everything you've written's wack

Your whole album should be hidden tracks

You know what? I started typin this but I lost the fuckin paper and I dont remember what I had. But that hidden tracks shit was pretty lethal. So was the rest. But I started this entire blog and had to stop and never got finished. But the fan(s) wanted some more and you gotta give the fans what they want.

Well I've really gotten into that league I was talkin about. It's called Lyric Kings. Look at that initialized: LK. Whoa. lol. Well Ive entered the punchline league in round 7 out of 20. In round 7 I lost but I came back with my first horrorcore win in the league in round 8. Horrorcore is when your verse is gorey and bloody and all that. This was my verse.

straight cuts leave torsos red, wake up to horses heads, he just a 'don vito' wit blood blotched in the sheets

get circumsized with a pocket knife, then jerk them eyez out ure sockets rite? put pupils in ure diet so you can watch what you eat

Pretty gorey right? I won so whatever. Well I go into round 9 and it looks like they started putting me against some wack ass niggaz. In my vic, the votes was 6-1. The most votes you can get is 5. Come on now. And the only reason he got a vote was because someone voted a tie, which counts as a vote for each of us. WTF?? lol

Im fuckin up but enjoyin myself while doin so. But inside I need a change and it feels like I'm missin out on somethin. STILL have that empty feeling. Maybe 'unrequited' is bothering more than I thought. I dunno. I gotta do some soul searching or somethin. Some time to just get away and think shit over. Maybe another fishing trip? I dont even know why I feel like this, but I suppose I need to find out.

I just found out that my suspension for my liscence hasnt been on file so I still gotta wait 6 months after I reapply for it or some shit like that. >=O

I finish school Tuesday. Not graduate. School. =/

Ive been lacking in night school attendance and have become the biggest movie goer lately. Ive missed 5 straight night schools but I saw Iron Man, Speed Racer, What Happens In Vegas, Harold and Kumar dos(30 minutes into the movie), and Red Belt. All in the last two weeks. I dont wanna eat popcorn for another month. xp

I STRONGLY reccomend Speed Racer over Iron Man. People might not understand it, but its probably because they didnt watch the show as a kid. It has more action, better storyline, and is a classic-er than Iron Man.

This shit is my life. Literally. If you asked me what my love life looks like, I would reply with something along the lines of this. Watch it and you will see what I mean. Even the paart where they are upside down and the girls are passing by and feeling their heads as they go. It just explains how my life is upside down while the girl who is on the green side of the grass passes me by without me being able to do anythin. Let me rephrase that. Without me taking action. It's The Pharcyde and its called Passing Me By. One of their better known songs from Bizzare Ride II The Pharcyde. One of my top five favorite songs. Bonita Applebum by A Tribe Called Quest and Take It In Blood by Nas are the only songs I enjoy more than this one.

i seen better punchlines at the prom waitin for drinks

A good number of my blog titles have been lines from songs. Just thought I'd share which songs they are from. The one in my title is from a freestyle Jin did with Cassidy.

"Lyrics are liquor for the fallen soldier"

Common, The People from Finding Forever (2007)

Money Over Bullshit: Nas actually made a song called Money Over Bullshit (2006). I came up with the concept before I was aware of this. Its on his Hip Hop Is Dead album, so of course I'm not too fond of his latter music.

i cant live without my ipod=I Can't Live Without My Radio by LL Cool J from Radio (1985): Basically noone uses radios anymore. I sure wish they would cause technology is going to get people too comfortable with it to the point that they wont be able to survive without it. Plus I would love it if we could take it back to the old school style. Its much more my "e-steelo". lol

"Starvin like Marvin for a Cool J song"

LL Cool J, Rock The Bells from Radio (1985)

"Can I live till my last day"

Biggie Smalls Ft. The L.O.X., Last Day from Life After Death (1997)

(It was actually Jadakiss on that hook)

"Your arm's too short to box with God"

Nas, You're The Man from Stillmatic (2001)

"Bond is my life, so I live by my word"

Nas, Suspect from It Was Written (1996)

"In 9th grade, I aint go to high school, I went to school high"

L.O.X., Recognize from We Are The Streets (2000)

"It's like I'm in a race against time"

Joell Ortiz Ft. Jadakiss and Saigon, Hip Hop (Remix) from The Brick: Bodega Chronicles (2007)

(That was from Saigon's verse)

"I've got sunshine in a bag"

Gorillaz, Clint Eastwood from Gorillaz (2005)

"The pimp in me may have to die with you"

Common, Come Close To Me from Electric Circus (2002)

"Rich man, poor man, read the headlines"

Ghostface Killah, Motherless Child from Ironman (1996)

rich man, poor man, read the headlines

defined

dictionary - n. a book containing a selection of the words of a language, usually arranged alphabetically, giving information about their meanings, pronunciations, etymologies, inflected forms, etc., expressed in either the same or another language

I wondered was there anyone dickheaded to grab a dictionary and look up "dictionary". Just something that crossed my mind.

I almost forgot about this blog yo. I've enjoyed saying "yo" after alot of my statements recently. Its also been enjoyed by other people. YO, YO, YO. So I've realized I'm not much of a phone person. And it was with the help of a number of chicks who are always like,"Why don't you call me?". I tell them I dont have a phone, but realistically I can use my mom's phone whenever I feel. I just don't like it. Mainly cuz I can't multi task while I'm on the phone. If I'm on the phone, that is ALL I can do.

I aint going to prom. I re-changed my mind. Fuck it. A bunch of people that I barely know celebrating shit I don care about. Plus my date couldnt go and I couldnt find a date worth paying 50 fuckin dollars for. lol

So I havent been focusing on school like I should. Its ok to lose slight focus at the end, but I let that slight focus drop to drastic measures. I missed three straight night schools and the last one I missed I went to the movies to see Iron Man. It was bleh. Iron Man was like Spider Man 3 but vice-versa, all the people of color thought it sucked and all the crackers thought it was good. Spider-Man was backwards to that though, cuz I thought it was good. I really wanna see Speed Racer yo. That was one of my favorite shows as a kid. I would go crazy to see a Speed Racer video.

I havent posted any verses or poetry because I am working on my visit to Fate's booth and I'm back on this site for MC's like I. It is "competitive" rap at its highest. I been signed up since last year but I had a hard time adjusting to its style. Not just any old MC could walk up in there and make a name, you gotta have complex lines and sick word play. Lil Wayne would look like a poodle against pitbulls in there. Right now I'm a baby red nose, but it isnt like it used to be. Ive honed my skills and made them more adaptable. Also Ive expanded my vocabulary and grasped the concept. My first battle back, I lost horribly, but I got much credit. I was going against a "vet" dique. He won but I still got credit for mines. Which is more than I could say for my former battles.

My highlight of the week: I had a blunt put right in my face, and I said noooo!!!

This shit reminds me of my brothers that are locked up. It's Nas as if he was writing to his boys in prison. I believe there is production by Q-Tip and I think it's him on the hook. Its classic Nas from Illmatic yo.



"You was my nigga when push came to shove."
Nas, One Love


Free Phaze, Hush, and Chino. I wonder whats gunna happen when you get out. Are you gunna be down with everything thats going on. I hope the best for you regardless. I would be going through that nightmare with you guys if I had went with yall. Yall in my prayers though, keep ya head up tho.....'like ya nose bleeding'.


AMOR to Hush, Phaze, and Chino

the "pimp" in me may have to die with you

defined

mc - master of ceremonies

Yeah, that's what they mean by mc. Betcha didn't know.

So I have decided to go to my prom, problem is I have until te 7th to buy the tickets and until the 10th to get a tux. I shoudl've planned better but I didn't think I was gunna go. I have a date, which is mainly the reason I'm going. I've always tried to get with this girl but she never even let me get close. Now though she starting to let up, so I'm seeing where this takes me. I kinda still have that thing for that other girl, but "unrequited", so yeah.


I'm gunna have a busy summer yo. Summer school, night school, AND online courses. AND work. Well at least I'm getting it over with, finnally.

A million and one things going through my mind. Alot of imbalances. It's all good though.

You ever come across a song in your ipod and your like,"I don't remember this being there.", but when you listen to it, its one of the best songs you ever heard? That is the story of this song. I remember hearing it before, but I didn't listen to it. There is a difference between hearing a song and listening to what they are saying. I also thought that maybe I didn't catch on to it cuz it was back in my "player" days and I didn't relate to it as well as I do know. Cuz for real, I wanna feel like this about a girl. You know, like a strong relationship without the immature cliches of my day and age, just someone who I can share a deep feeling with and it's because of their inner being rather than the extrinsic values. This song expresses a feeling so beautiful, I envy Common for it. lol I swear I listened to it all day at school.

THIS is what happened to hip hop...

in response to Maria's blog with the De La video that I enjoy oh so much. Well let me explain that. De La Soul created the D.A.I.S.Y. age. (Da Inner Sound Ya'll) But when hip-hop got a little hardcore style in it, they were ridiculed and mocked by others for their unique and original style. So trying to transform with hip hop, they came out with "De La Soul Is Dead" which is an appropriate title. It did produce some good jams like this one....



but after this, they couldn't quite return to the rythm of "3 Feet High and Rising", unfortunately for us.


Here is a neat little timeline of hip-hop.


Here are the caveman drawings of hip-hop.




along with one of the most infectious records ever made, which helped moved hip-hop out of the south Bronx and Harlem...




Following the release of "Planet Rock" was the slap bass groove and luxurious keyboards of...




and a song that was ahead of it's time, so to speak...




but simultaneously, this was going on...




which paved the way for hardcore rap. But this affect would come later. Well, after much b-boying and feuds with mtv to play some hip-hop, it actually started getting recognized with...




which broke alot of barriers and changed the style of hip-hop to the folded arms and the b-boy "attitude" that was marked with the shell toe Adidas with the fat laces or no laces at all. This group opened the door to a new generation of hip hop. With the help of this man of course...




This was from the movie "Crush Groove".Even though it was "Run's House", this duo sure jumped the fence and sprayed their music in their backyard...

But then came the rebelliousness of the group with the biggest impact on popular culture that hip hop have to offer...




and the hardcore "reality rap" and the sonic sound of Dre's drum beats...




..who greatly over shadowed






So then came the age that modernized hip-hop. Undoubtedly the most consistent rap group to bless the game with a over a decade of hits, this duo was a perfect example of the rapper's "creed": the skills...




and the group that redefined the art of crate diggin...




and monster jams like..




..I remember as a kid that everytime this song came on we would wave our hands back and forth and go "Hay, hoo, haa, hoo!!".


Then some of the better known mc's of today made their debut or blew up around 93...




...his debut single, he is truly hip hop's chosen one and was deservingly anointed Rakim's successor after dropping "Illmatic". Also, none other than the greatest martyr of rap...

who of course had the infamous beef with...

...who almost single handedly put NY back on the map in the beef between East Vs. West. Of course there was help from the Xiolin warriors who preached that "Cash Rules Everything Around Me" and brang da ruckus that had everyone protecting their necks. The classic from arguably the greatest rap group...

This is where hip hop started to go wrong...

which led to this...

The rest is history. So, that is what happened to hip hop. From here, Snoop, Mobb Deep, and Big L came about. Eventually, the thug "persona" has influenced the 50 Cents, Plies, and Lil Boosies of today. So, now since they aren't "artists" anymore, they come up with...

Hip hop is dead. Its just a bunch of dudes tryna make money by talkin bout shit they never did or stuff they dont have. Its a shame.