lyrics are liquor for the fallen soldier.

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war -n. active hostility or contention; conflict; contest

I'm at war. War with the gov't, cops, and the "man" is irrelevant. War with yourself is always there. But war with pressure. My young years went by quicker than I expected. I'm starting to realize that tommorrow I am a man. Wow time flies. Sometimes I sit around and have nothing to do and I just think. Especially being locked up the only thing you have to do is think, aside from the interesting activities of sleeping on a concrete slab, eating nasty food, and then the excitement of later shitting it out with another dude in the cell. Well after much thinking, the realization of "I aint got but one life" sinks in. I spent my teenage years tryin to live like an adult and now I lost them years. I can't spend my adult years livin like a teen, so now I realized and truly understand that you only got ONE life to live. That is a scary thought.

I've fallen many times in my life. I fell when I started fighting in elementary school. Again when I started smoking in middle school, and again when I commited felonies in early high school. But it dont matter how many times you fall, its how quick you get back and how fast you keep moving. Problem is the more you fall the harder it is to get back up. And it is not because the more you fall, the weaker you get. In reality, the more you fall, you get stronger. It's rather because the more you fall, the harder the next fall's gunna be. Recently I fell real hard. Well I'm getting back up but it's hard. Way harder than I can explain. My social life is on hold and I could care less but still you wanna live your young life while your still young. meh. My love life is non-existent. Females are too shallow and the ones that I can actually see myself with just can't see themselves with me. meh. I gotta work my ass off, harder than others, for my education and this probation don't help. Stopped the smoking because I am finally starting to realize things. When the older dudes tell you shit its because they been there done that. I've also realized it's become a cycle. All my life people telling me not to do this and that. I just sat there not listenin just nodding my head. Then when it hits me I finally realize they was right. It's like i can hear their voices. So when I get old and I give young dudes the same advice that was given to me will they react like me or will they listen? Did the people who tell me these things ignore the people who told them? In a sense, I'm convinced its a cycle. The message has to get across, but first I gotta help myself before I can help anyone else. The only thing I can do is warn.

Back to the war on pressure. The pressure is keeping me down. It is trying to prevent me from getting back up. Not pressure mentally or physically. Not even emotionally. Naturally. Well like I said, every time you fall, it is harder for you to get back up the next time. Well there has to be some kind of force, some type of resistance, some pressure that is preventing me from rising. It is obviously abstract. But it is strong. Doesn't necessarily mean that I am going to lose. I have resorted to books for guidance. Since I knew this was a war, what better book to get than The Art Of War By Sun Tzu. This man wrote this two and a half thousand years ago and its principles still apply today. However, I think he wrote this as a military subject. But the things he says, and many critics agree, can be used to combat all enemies, any enemies.

Well the quote I am keeping in mind is this:

Sun Tzu wrote, "If you know the enemy and know yourself, you need not worry the outcome of a hundred battles."

I know the enemy. The enemy is what I have to do and what I gotta take care of to withstand the pressure. Problem is I'm still getting to know myself. Well I'm soaking in as much knowledge and wisdom as I can. I'm like a fuckin sponge, because I know this is the key to defeating my enemy. Knowledge of thy self and thy enemy. But there's one thing that I've learned that will really make anyone sharper and wiser.....

I've learned that I've got a lot to learn.

This man is actually good. He's very spiritually and artistically talented. His beats also express alot of his ideas and I like when artists can synchronize with their beats. It's beautiful. But the thing that really stood out on this album is that Lily Allen didn't wanna make me claw my eyes out with a spoon. Cuz I hate that bitch. But she really sounds nice in "Drivin' Me Wild". Big ups to Common.

P.S. Thanks Maria for puttin me on to him. =]